Well last night was full of tears before getting to bed and this morning once woke up also were tears flowing from my eyes. Lucky thing this morning it wasn't sunny infact it rain this morning.....thank YOU =)
Well you were bring selfish for you knew I did not know the truth yet when you told me about it you turn 360 degree and tell me to cut it off. You did not even give me the chance to proof myself when you make a decision base on the judgement of what you see is on the face value and not to value itself. Speechless is all I can say as I was not being treated fairly. Never was and I guess never will.
Hopefully tonight will get to have a better sleep. As much as I did get enough sleep last night but it was due to crying for God knows how many hours.......*sigh*
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Something to pour out on
It has been ages since my last post but today I just need to pour it out. Last night I didn't get enough sleep and this morning I got up super early (@.@) Damn tired...well I hardly ever get NOT ENOUGH sleep....hahaha....I guess there was too much on my mind but I can't stop thinking when I heard those 5 words. It keep replaying at the back of my mind over and over again. To me,I get scared whenever I heard those 5 words. It's probably something usual for some people but I think its out of selfishness that one would be saying such words.
Am I over thinking it or its just a simple term that that person is really meaning it? I don't feel that I'm over thinking as I do feel a feel that there seem to be a fall in between and its getting thicker and thicker (while some people always tells me that I'm thinking too much). Lately also ain't feeling so well that I feel sick. Sick of loads and loads of things and dealing with a lot of things. I'm still hanging in there thou....I shall learn to be tougher....hope to start by getting able to control my EQ. Somebody once told me that my EQ is not very strong but I've no idea how to control them well. Lol.
I guess I should spend more time with people.....so people where are thou????!!!! Lol. If not....similar things will come back to haunt me. Depression seem to be one of the favourites with loads and loads of "salt water". Lately I do see similar patterns coming back so trying my best to stop the beast and beat the crap out of it in order to stop it from creeping over me again as it is the meanest and most difficult "creature" to destroy. No easy yet its not attainable =)
Being emo lately just make it worst when one is listening to so much of emo songs. (=.=") Even one of my good friend told me that I listen to too much emo songs. Is that right? I'm not sure thou. Well....is not to say I do not have any other variety but its just I seem like and prefer listening to them more than others as it has meaning in the lyrics. Wonderful once with beautiful memories playing in our mind....or at least probably mine only....haha....well I guess I'll stop here for the time being with a new playlist. Enjoy~~~ =)
Am I over thinking it or its just a simple term that that person is really meaning it? I don't feel that I'm over thinking as I do feel a feel that there seem to be a fall in between and its getting thicker and thicker (while some people always tells me that I'm thinking too much). Lately also ain't feeling so well that I feel sick. Sick of loads and loads of things and dealing with a lot of things. I'm still hanging in there thou....I shall learn to be tougher....hope to start by getting able to control my EQ. Somebody once told me that my EQ is not very strong but I've no idea how to control them well. Lol.
I guess I should spend more time with people.....so people where are thou????!!!! Lol. If not....similar things will come back to haunt me. Depression seem to be one of the favourites with loads and loads of "salt water". Lately I do see similar patterns coming back so trying my best to stop the beast and beat the crap out of it in order to stop it from creeping over me again as it is the meanest and most difficult "creature" to destroy. No easy yet its not attainable =)
Being emo lately just make it worst when one is listening to so much of emo songs. (=.=") Even one of my good friend told me that I listen to too much emo songs. Is that right? I'm not sure thou. Well....is not to say I do not have any other variety but its just I seem like and prefer listening to them more than others as it has meaning in the lyrics. Wonderful once with beautiful memories playing in our mind....or at least probably mine only....haha....well I guess I'll stop here for the time being with a new playlist. Enjoy~~~ =)
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