Pre Christmas Party

After the AFA finished their exams, Ken Loong invited me over to have a BBQ party with them. It was a closed party thus he only called a few friends of his. It was nice to at least go out once in awhile to go and have some fun and I made new friends as well =)

The host

The Girls

One Big Family

 Lately I've been starting to watch Boys Over Flowers. Finally~~~ Yes I know I'm slow. Well I've actually mentioned that I wanted to watch ever since early of the year and now is aired on 8TV. I don't wana loose out then it triggered me to start watching as well. Of course I still watch online instead of tv as I prefer to listen to them speaking Korean than Mandarin.

Gu Jun Pyo 

Yoon Ji Hoo

So Yi Jung

Song Woo Bin

Love them!!! *sigh~*

I love them very much!!!!! So good looking *drool* and the show makes me addicted to them so much!!!!! To me, it is much better than the Taiwan version, Meteor Garden. The Korean version is much funnier and much nicer as the Taiwan version was a little boring.....thou some of them are good looking. =) Besides, AMA also have their very own version of F4. And I would say they have similar characteristics as the actual character in the show. If you watch the show, you would know what I mean. (^-^)

Cute!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

Here is one of my favourite song from the show. Love the lyrics very much thou its suppose to be in Korean. Here is the translated version in English. And the new playlist consists of 6 of Boys Over Flowers OST. Enjoy~~~ (FYI : you can click next to skip songs)

Singer : SS501

Title : Because I'm Stupid

Because I'm really stupid I know of no one other than you

You're looking at someone else,

Yet you have no idea of my feelings like this.

I won't be in your days,

I won't be in the memories either, however

Only you, I looked only at you, and the tears keep coming

As I watch you walking past, I'm still happy

Even yet, you still don't know my heart

I should stop this and go...Ohhh...

I really want to see the day

I'm withstanding the pain each day

"I love you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

Alone once again, missing for you

Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you

I won't be in your days,

I won't be remembered either, however

Only you, I looked only at you, I'm making memories alone

Loving you...is like having a beautiful wound

I look at your pretty smile also

But I cannot laugh with you..Unoo...Uwoo...

I'm thinking about you so much everyday

My heart is hurting in all these sad days

"I want to see you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

Alone once again, missing for you

Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you

Bye bye, never say goodbye

Even though I cannnot hold you like this

I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you

I keep on hoping too, I'll keep hoping

I really want to see the day

I'm withstanding the pain each day

"I love you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

I'm thinking about you so much everyday

My heart is hurting in all these sad days

"I want to see you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

Alone once again, missing for you

Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you

What a day~ *sigh*

Meeting back with the girls was a great fun last week. Having fun chatting over dinner was just delightful although it was only for a few hours. They said that I've look thin again. Well it's probably due to the many reasons which just affects one after another. Having not enough sleep, sleeping at the wee hours and with all the stress causes me not having any appetite to eat. Sleeping late means waking up late as well and thus I'll tend to skip breakfast which actually disrupts my eating habit. It's pretty bad of skipping breakfast as it's my most important meal of the day. To me, breakfast is to eat like a king, lunch is to eat like a prince and dinner is to eat like a beggar. You may think its funny but this is the correct way of eating which doesn't apply to many people whom I know and they ended up saying, "No wonder your size is like that". I just felt speechless as nobody would believe that my size has nothing to do with my eating habit.

Speaking of habit, which links indirectly and the topic for the day is about how a person has the power to influence another person. I guess this happens to many people whether they realise it or not. And most of the time is the power of love that affects a person. Some may change drastically while others may change only a little bit. As for me, I realise one of my habit stop ever since he left. I don't know how or why but it just did. Funny as it seems because a friend of mine once told me that no matter how hard we try to eliminate a habit it will still be with us. I had this habit ever since I was a toddler, so I guess it has been almost 20 years already.

Habit is spelled as HABIT.

If we take away the H, it becomes ABIT which means we still have ABIT.

If we take away the A, it becomes BIT which means we still have BIT of it.

If we take away the B, it becomes IT which means we still have IT.

That is why I find it a little funny and ironic that my habit totally stopped. Is it a good thing or a bad thing I have no comment. One thing's for sure is I'm not as strong as I though I am. I though I can handle it since it has been awhile but today things seems so rough. I don't know why I'm feeling sad and blue but I am. Christmas is suppose to be a happy season. *sigh*  May the coming weeks be a better one.

Goodbye November, Hello December

Welcome back! Sorry for being away peeps! Been really really really busy with assignments this whole week. Having not enough sleep for the whole week!!!!! Now eyes also look like panda already (T.T) Ah...well....I don't know what's with this semester but it seriously alot of work and assignments....one after another. This week 2 assignments handed in already so hooray! 2 down....1 more assignment, 1 more test and 2 more presentation to go~~~ Sigh.

Well its December already.....it felt not long ago only that I went to celebrate the New Year with Boon they all in Shah Alam this year and its another new year again.....soon. This month is the best month ever!!!!! I've always look forward to December apart from my favourite Chinese New Year and Mooncake Festival because its Christmas!!!!! Yippeee!!! I wonder where will I be hanging out this Christmas.....don't want to stay home yet don't want to mingle around with the crowd as well. Perhaps can crash my gfs' place. Well will decide that later since will be meeting them later!!!! Can't wait!!!! Loh Loh is back from Aussie!!!! =)

Apart from Christmas, there are loads and loads of movies I'm looking forward to this month but not sure if I've the time to go for movies as exams are drawing nearer. *Gosh!* So far have only watched Planet 51, 2012 and Ninja Assasin. And also not forgetting shopping spree time!!!! But I'm kinda broke right now (=.=") spend so much money during November. This is what happens when you have friends who's birthday all falls in the same month!

Last month also went out with my classmates for the first time (apart from the usual GIRLS). LOL. I did enjoy myself but it sad cause din't have the chance to take more pictures with them as Pavilion's deco this time is beautiful!!!! White Christmas........which seems to be this year's theme for many other shopping complex as well. Yeah yeah~~~~ must find time to go shopping and take more nice pics!!!! Go KLCC, Sunway, 1U, Midvalley, Sungai Wang or Times Square. Cause its been awhile since I been doing any shopping so...haha....miss those places alot :) But who wants to go out with me????? Anyone else???? LOL! So much things to do in college also dunno got time to go out or not.*sigh*

THE last post

You can hide but the truth will come out eventually. No matter how you tried to hide something, it will still come out eventually some day. Its just a matter of time. What I dislike most was the denial and the lies. People often regret only after they lost something which is precious to them. Why is it that people only regret AFTER they loss something? Why do they take things for granted in the first place? I guess its just human nature. Complicated as always.

I'm feeling so tired. Tired of so many things that has happened lately. Assigment for SFM was a mess and I don't know what to expect for my results this time. My results for SM test just sucks to the max. Never in my life have I got such terrible results before. Everything just seem to affect me so much lately and I can't take it anymore. I've decided that the best is to really let it go faster. Trying all my might and strength to get that burden off my shoulders. There was just too much pain involved. The hatred that grows within me would definately change me in person but it is not me anymore. I did not want to be that person. Hatred is something which brings a person down as well and that is the last thing I need right now. Letting go the love and the hate is the best way to keep a friendship. Loving him was not about right or wrong but it just happen at the wrong place at a wrong time.

I'm sick of all these things. It was not that I was holding on thinking there was hope. At first it was but then I know it was pointless. The worst thing a person should not do it to lie to themself. Loving a person should not be painful and difficult. Is not so much about how much you click with each other or how much you have in common but is about trust, honesty, how much you value each other and how much effort you put in a relationship. When you found your true love, you won't have insecurities and go asking question after question. In the back of your mind you won't go thinking what is he doing now with other girls around? Will he cheat on me? Will he be faithful? Does he really love me? Because you know, no matter what, they will ALWAYS have us their heart.Thinking every moment about us and be there for us and ALWAYS and ONLY us. Rooting for us, supporting us, cheering us up and feeling what we are feeling even when we don't said it.

A friend in need is a friend in deed. I wana thank YOU for sending angels to me and lighten up my burden =) When I was down, I shut myself away from people and the things around me. Putting a barrier up cause I did not want to feel the pain. Getting mood swings was becoming more often than ever. But I oversee the things in life that matter the most to me. My dear friends. They were there for me when I needed them the most. They mould my life and made me who I am today. Every memories that I have with them were precious to me. Every single one of them whether the guys or girls, my schoolmates, my groupmates, my classmates or even my coursemates.

As of today, this will be my last post about him. I promised. I won't want to make my friends to worry about me. Holding back just brings too much emotions back and nothing but pain. I deserve to be happy. I know I can do it. Thanks to all my dear friends for the strength that you all gave me. Thank you very much and I love all of you very much =)

And you can see on the top right side there are little fishes which I just installed. So people do come by from time to time and feed them all right =P or maybe just play around with them k??? Haha.....and a new playlist which well....consists of song which I love =)

Stressed out!

So much to do yet so little time. So much pressure from so many things makes me think, think and think. Because of too much pressure that causes me to break down all of a sudden the other day. I din't know why all of a sudden but the burden was just too heavy. I was having mixed feelings the other day. Mummy went away for a week so I'm resposible of things at home plus SFM assignment dateline which is so freaking near and being emo just makes me felt worst than ever. All this has also affected my health lately. I also felt bad when I broke down all of a sudden and people thinks that is was his fault. I din't know how to explain at that point of time as YB said, 解释既是掩饰 plus I was not really in the mood and don't want people to bug me with questions so there really was no point explaning. They can think what they want to think I just don't want to care so long as it doesn't hurt his feelings. He has feelings as well and its not fair to blame someone for something that they din't do. I just feel so frustared at myself for being so weak and cried almost everyday this few days. *sigh* Please give me the strength to carry on cause right now I only feel like dying as loneliness and darkness seems to creeps up more and more while sunshine and happiness seems so far away. I just don't know where or who to turn to as I feel so lost right now.

Finally~

Yes, finally I've finished what I started and have also pass it to its owner. I though I can finish it in 3 weeks time but it took me a month instead. Despite all the negative critism that I receive, all the hardwork, all the rushing, its all over now. As much as I don't want it to, I have to. He will always remain in my heart thou.

A lecturer of mine once said that writing is good for the soul. I wonder how true is that? Perhaps one will feel better by expressing themselves but does it really work? In the long run maybe....I guess....I'll have to find out the next time then.

As for now, cherish and savour every moment that we can. This is my first time being so emo on my blog. I've never been like this before. He is really special. The one and only unique one in my life. He has definately changed my life and made an impact that I will never forget especially those happy moments that we had. If I have a chance in my next life, I will surely pick him again.

Apart from this, there will be a new first time again....soon. This time is assignment. This will be my first time working in a group with guys cause our lecturer wants us to mix around and he'll randomly pick and put us into groups. All this while I've only been in an all girl group. I guess this will be just another experience of life. I hope I'll get along with my new group members without any problem. *pray hard* I really dislike all the group problems and disagreement which sometimes can affect one's friendship. People often say, its easier to make enemies than friends. But for me, I would rather not want any enemies. =)

P.s. I know I should not have but I miss him so much.

- Always & Forever -

AMA Group 1 =)

Well this week have been very very tiring as I was rushing to finish up some stuffs and its taking more time than I expected because was quite difficult in searching of that something to go with it. Anyways my presentation was delayed to next week!!!!!!!!! Dam it! *sigh* So now I'll have presentation next week and another test again....this time is SM. Oh boy~~ oh boy~~ This time I'll sure die.....some more need to start to work on my SFM assignment as the dateline is near too!!!!! *faints* Well at least we took loads and loads of pics after our FDM presentation. Kinda lazy to label them. I only took some of them which I like and think its nice =P The rest of them can be found in FB....so enjoy the pics~