Dear Diary

Its not pain nor is it a burden. It is love. It is the pursuit of happiness. Am glad how things turned out to be. As times passes by, it does help...ALOT. Time is all we need to prove it. May God bless you with eternal happiness.

Finally the big day is here! Been waiting and was pretty anxious but it was a fun yet tiring day =) If only we had more time to spend together. Will look forward to our next meet up again my dear friends. (God knows when will it be. Hopefully after exams!) Take care amigos! Will miss all of you very much. Truly, Madly, Deeply. (just like Savage Garden)


Stay strong. Stay tough. There is still a long route for you to travel on.

La la la~

First it was your age, now it is your name that I've known. You seem to be pretty popular in here don't you??? *hmmm* I guess you also know that since whenever you pass by, you can always hear giggling sounds echoing after you and that accidentally overhearing someone calling you handsome. Hahaha.

Oh my, so much I want to talk about but am so not in the mood to update and babble and babble and babble. My head just hurts so much. Sigh. Work. Stress. Tension. Its all coming back. Dam dam dam!

This is for you.

My Favourite Mistake by Sheryl Crow (currently playing on playlist)

I woke up and called this morning
The tone of your voice was a warning
That you don't care for me anymore

I made up the bed we sleep in
I looked at the clock when you creep in
It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone

Did you know when you go
It's the perfect ending
To the bad day I was just beginning
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake

Your friends are sorry for me
They watch you pretend to adore me
But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover
She'd be unlike any other
Until your guilt goes up in flames

Did you know when you go
It's the perfect ending
To the bad day I'd gotten used to spending
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

Well maybe nothin' lasts forever
Even when you stay together
I don't need forever after
It's your laughter won't let me go
So I'm holding on this way

Did you know, could you tell
You were the only one
That I ever loved
Now everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by?
Did it ever make you cry?

You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake


p/s: This week's playlist is Sheryl Crow. Awesome singer!

Random Thoughts

I do not and I guess I will never understand how some people can be workaholics. Was it because of the money???? Was it because there is nothing interesting in life except for work??? Or was is because they just love working??? LOL!!! I guess I would never understand it at all. Life without any FUN would kills me faster. I wonder how do you stand it???? All I ever see you do is work, work and work. No children, no sports, no life! The only enjoyment you seem to have in your life is sleeping. Have you not ever want to go for holidays??? Where's the fun in your life man~! Keep all the money for what???? As much as you might be the one who inherit the company in future...but still....get a life will ya???? You have a wife for goodness sake. I wonder what kind of person is she. Someone just like you (a workaholic)???? Well, may God bless you two with all the happiness that you need. Who knows....maybe you're very happy with your life the way it is. This song is dedicated to you. [Empire State of Mind by Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys]

*sigh*

What you say seems to be contradicting with your actions. Which should I believe? Your words or your actions? What happen between us? Was it because we don't talk like we used to? Or was it because you have someone new in your life? There seem to be a gap in between. Maybe it was time that is bringing us apart and being away from each other makes me feels like a stranger. At least that's how I felt. Maybe I'm thinking too much or maybe that you couldn't care anymore. Whatever it is, don't lie it to my face. I dislike it very very much. It is same as being betrayed and I'm sure you know how that feels.

Touched

It's been awhile since I last watched movie at home. Today I had the chance to watched two really great movie. One is Hachiko and the other one is Ice Kacang Puppy Love. There were laughter, there were pretty much tears and most of all, both was indeed a very wonderful movie to watch especially Hachiko. If ya had the chance, don't miss it =) [too much tears in a day though....oh my eyes!!!]

Welcome back to KL =)

When will I be seeing you again????? Will things be the same like it used to be when before you went away? Four months since I last see you. How have you been? How are you doing? So much we need to catch up on. Ever since I started working I've been pretty much disconnected with people. Hardly online and always feeling tired and lazy. *sigh*

When we meet again will it be the same? Will we still be that crazy and hyper and noisy? I guess we might but there is a side which I'm worried. I'm worried that things will be awkward as well. Being away from each other for 4 months and many things have changed. You being closer with other people, making new friends in other country and we hardly talk and well.....people often grow apart from each other as time passes by. I hope things will remain the same though we won't be able to see each other as we used to back in college. Just so you know, I misses you very much and am looking forward to meeting you when there is a chance. Take care my friends~! Love y'all much~!

Stay

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see
She can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear
To love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don't you stay
I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
You can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay, yeah

*An awesome song by Sugarland*

P/s - Its on the current playlist~

A New Chapter

Starting a new chapter of life is pretty much where everyone goes through from time to time of their life. And as for me is entering into the working life. As much as I dislike it, its just life and I need it desperately. Need money so so badly because of my non-stop shopping even before I started working. It's really not easy when you see all the pretty things and when they are on sales~~~ LOL! But well I don't shop till I drop so I think its still forgivable =P

Working life isn't fun at all especially when you're doing something that doesn't seem to have anything related to what you have studied. I just hope to get to learn something out of here and I did. Learning to tolerate with someone is not easy especially when that someone is your "head". Working might be great when you have good colleagues but its not at all when you have a lousy "head". But it's part of life where its always never fair. Nothing is fair in life and one has to just accept it and move on with it. Might it be a lousy "head" or not getting to buy that favourite pair of shoes just because it can't fit me! *sigh* Whatever it is, let it be and move on with life as there might be great things awaiting us in future. As for now lets see what SOME of the things that I've spend on. =P

My 1st pair of working shoes

An overall dress which I've been looking for quite awhile

A new dress for work

Another LBD. Love this very much!

This is....cuz I like it? LOL!

Finally the book I've been hunting for~~~

THE most expensive accessories I've ever bought in my life!

A Reminder to Myself

There are times when we want to share our feelings or piece of mind to a friend but we can't be able to do it. Was it because of pride? ego? shame? anger? frustration? confusion? Whatever the reason is, some things are better left unsaid as it might end up affecting not only ourselves but others as well.

The past few days, I realise that there are changes in me. I rarely smile like I used to anymore. I hardly laugh as much as I used to and I barely feel like talking to people anymore. Was it that I've been so contented with loneliness? Maybe....maybe not. I'm not sure, as always, I can never make up my mind and always in a confusion state of mind.

I hate the fact that I'm starting to be cold towards people. I'm not so friendly, always being emo and frustrated more often than ever. Often moody and have the feeling of hating every single person in this world. Even the slightest thing pisses me off. I guess its cause I cannot accept the fact of who I'm starting to become or turning into. Events happened that causes me to be like this and now I see how ugly this world can be and all I did was nothing but cry.

So much anger, frustration, darkness and confusion and its killing me. Being drowned and overwhelmed by all these feelings.*sigh* And its making me becoming more remorse.

I should not let myself to turn into someone whom I'm not. I shall stop the attitude of do nothing but only crying and to deal things like an adult. Learning is a process of life. Learn to let go the pain. Learn to stop being naive. Learn to deal with life as it comes becomes life is full of shits anyway. Wake up my dear....this world is not so pretty as it seems. There are always the pretty and ugly side. Don't just see one side. Time to wake up and stop being such a kid. If you don't learn to grow up then you will never learn.

1st August 2010

Ok....well I was suppose to update about 1st of August but this week has been a pretty busy week because I've been going out alot especially this week. Well, I guess cause I'm trying to enjoy as much as possible as its the last week before I start working.

1st of August is Friendship Day for those who don't know. And as for us, CK, we have actually made a promise five years ago (year 2005) to meet up on 1st August 2010 at a specific place at a certain time. What's so special you may wonder. The problem is that within these 5 years we are not allowed to talked about it and when the time comes we are not allowed to remind each other in order to see how many of us will turn up. And the result? Only 3 person came that night. LOL! Out of 12 only 3 were there~~~!!!! 2 were not in Malaysia and another 2 was not able to make it and as for the rest....I guess they might have forgotten about it. But it's ok....the "next" meeting will be 2015. I really can't wait and wonder who will turn up with their husband or even kids.

The 3 who came

A New Member~

I'm getting pretty lazy to update my blog these days because my life is just so routine these days that even I myself cannot take it. Job oh job...please come to me~~~~ or else I'm going cuckoo soon~~~

Anyways, as stated at the title, its about a new member of my collection~~~ Thanks to Jit Ming!!!! Thanks for your help amigo!!!! Really appreciate it alot!!!! Arigadou!!!! =D Now, let me introduce you the new member of my favourite and number one idol~~~~

*tada*

Upclose <3

= No. 10 =

My collection~*

Others~*

Well as you can see its not a complete collection...hahaha....I also wish to have a complete set!!!!! *sigh* If only I was rich...hahaha....or anyone who can sponsor help me complete my set??? *hint hint* =P

I Miss You~

I miss you, you, you, you and you~~~

Some which I've met a few days ago

Some who din't make it that day

One who I've not seen for 2 weeks

One who I've not meet for 3 weeks

Some who I've last seen at the airport

Some who I've last seen after exams

And many that I've not seen for months!

Hope to see you soon!

Especially my bao bei~

My bao bei

She's nice to play with

1 year plus

*cute*

Trying to get her to wear the cap

Yes! Finally a pic before she took of the cap again!

She is petite

Loves food

And scared of guys! LOL!

This is Ah Bie!

When she was 2

Now the age of 4

The younger sis

The elder sis

The 2 sisters

Singapore

Well this was supposed to be up for a long time but I din't get hold of the pictures. Once I have it then my pc was send for repair and that is why now only its up.

It's my first time being out of Malaysia and the trip is fun! Enjoyed it despite how tiring it may be the past few days. Went there with 2 besties of mine Melanie and Ching and stayed at Loh and YY's place. A nice getaway but 4 days just seems too little. I'm greedy I know =P

I've compiled the pictures together and there were not much picture too because we were so busy with other stuffs~ LOL!

Reminiscent

All you ever wanted was beyond what I can give

All I ever wanted was what you can provide

But there is something in between

That we know we can't  give each other

And that something

Happens to be a very important thing

To both of us.

As much as the heart may want it

The mind is always there

Constantly reminding us

What we should and should not do.

Is it really worth when we follow our hearts

Instead of mind?

There's always pros and cons for both

And it all depends on ourself

Regardless of which ever path we take.

By the end of the day

We must remember one thing

That is not to regret.

Because if we do

If will only makes matters worst.

What's done is done

And there is no turning back time

To undo it.

Everything in life

Happens for a reason.

Just have a little faith

And stay strong

Sorry, my heart.

P/s - Love love louve the new playlist!!!!! =D Enjoy~~~*

Conditional Love ;)

I got this email from a friend and I find it really cute so I'm sharing it here. Enjoy :)
 

Conditional Love - Girl's Take 

Don't judge me by the pretty dress I wore, 

or that line of blue over the mascaraed eye

Don't remember my poise and gait, 

nor the giggle as you walked me to my door

Think instead of when we fought, 

my face scary and scrunched up in anger

Remember the green of spinach between my teeth, 

and how when we yawned, I yawned louder.

If you can think of me sitting in my PJs, 

hair not combed (and chewed nails to boot) 

and not have to suppress a shudder;

If you don't close your ears when I sing in the shower,

But care enough when I don’t always do what’s right, 

I might just have to give you more than my number

Conditional Love - Guy's take

When I say I’m tired, I need a break

It usually means time with the guys,

Don’t get angry and throw a crazy fit,

Loving me was never meant to be a piece of cake.

If I’m glued to the PC, on WoW or DOTA,

Or even if I’m just being a tech freak’s freak,

Please, don’t ask me to do the dishes or laundry

Feed me, clothe me and mother me a bit

Don’t however treat me like a kid

I don’t mind driving you to the grocery store,

But let us get this one thing clear:

When you say you’ll only be a minute and nothing more

I won’t bother to look for proper parking,

And trust me, I’d rather wait in the car

I love my car, my cell, sports, fast food and TV,

And don’t mock my skills with a wrench and hammer,

I assure you I also know my way

around a broom, mop and vacuum cleaner,

But most of the time I think ‘Why bother’!

I too can commit and that know you know

But don’t expect a helpless romantic

Or my pals will kill me, baby, I’ll be a social goner.

Battle Is Over

I'm back!!!!! Well not quite really in the mood to blog after being away for sometime. Anyways, my battle is finally over....excited and happy yet having mixed feelings as well. The 3 days battle was a killer for sure. It's impact does hit me pretty hard especially the final one. *sigh* I guess there is a high chance that I will have to go through this battle again especially my last paper.

Ah well, what goes around comes around. As for now, its time to relax and then will have to start looking for a job. A permanent one that is. Need money!!!! (>.<)

Was suppose to plan to meet up with my classmates before they fly off to UK but due to the limited time, I ended up having to cancel it. Because right after exams I went back Bidor for 3 days and back in KL and this weekend will be away again for my vacation with my gfs!!!! Can't wait!!!! (^-^) Maybe we can reschedule after they are back from UK!!!!! Here are some pics from our last revision class and also Uncle Chong's 64th 46th birthday celebration.

*yummy*

The Girls

The Guys + Xian Long

~Before~

~After~

Durian Cake

Group pic

Happy 22nd Birthday Yi Huang!

Take 1

Take 2

Take 3

Take 4

Take 5

The Girls

The Guys

Group pic 1

Group pic 2